Art Can't be Forced

I'm really stressed for no reason... i think i need to take a couple of minutes and just breath. maybe splash some cold water on my face. ya so today was good i guess, i mean it had its ups and downs for sure but for the most part i really enjoyed it. As far as the bad parts go i think I'm just really tired, i mean that in a physical and mental way, I'm tired of my obsessive personality, I'm tired of star testing, but most of I'm tired of school and being dependant on my parents for every part of my life. hahahaha that was intense. today in Avery we had to pick a controversial topic and discuss the view points and make a solution, for the first 5 minutes i stared at the paper and then i decided to copy the opinions of Tyler Wilson. even though i watch the news and enjoy think about the issues i could think of a single solution to any of them. maybe that because i never am forced to think of a solution or compromise to the intense issues. Well then i left school and almost got in 3 accidents in the 4 block from school to my house. I'm such a terrible driver, they really shouldn't let me on the road. then i had to deal with my dad not want me to run the marathon because it cost to much, he offered to go to the meeting and at least pay the 100. Me being the freak that i am had to take this and blow t completely out of portion, by saying that if he didn't think i could raise the money i just shouldn't so it... ya I'm rediculas, then i cooled down and we talked it out i think I'm going to make it and everything is going to be OK. I think that every once in awhile i just need to blow off steam by getting in an argument with my dad, it's sad. ya now i have to draw two pictures of my fears by tomorrow and i haven't even started. I don't think it's healthy to be forcing art.