Calm me Down

Once i read a poem by Langston Hughes called "we wear the masks" and i analysed it by say that African Americans felt the need to hide their true personalities to please the "white man" i now realize that even if this is what Hughes was trying to say the poem goes way deeper then that. i think this might have all started to click during English today while Godsey was lecturing on how Hamlet put on a mask so that people would see him for something he is not. I reason i bring this up is that i now believe i have developed such a thick mask around myself that i am unable to let people get really close to me. sounds clique but it didn't when it was in my head. pretty much i think what i am trying to say is that i should really put out a strong effort to stop lying to please other and make decisions that are not going to adversely affect me down the line. I don't know what i I'm saying it just thoughts splattered against a computer screen but there it is right in front of you now.

i feel like i have been doing really well in school and even taking on alot of unneeded work, but i guess that's good in someways, but i do feel alittle stress out so maybe i should back off for a while after this week. I'm just waiting for things to calm down. calm me down please.