Sometimes it's nice to revisit a place you haven't been in a while. this weekend i had the privilege of going home and seeing my family (along with some close friends). on the whole it was a nice weekend, but i think it made me really miss the familiarity of home... even though I've been living in Santa Cruz for 5 month now it still isn't a home for me. maybe it never will be. What is really strange is that i don't consider San Luis to be a very nice town, but i guess it's just the memories I associate with it that make me feel nostalgic. it was good to break from the chaos of college though. unfortunately i have been feeling very under the weather for the last three of four day, which make it very difficult to study and write essay (like college requires me to do).
I think that the reason i have chosen to make an entry today is because i feel i am at a turning point in my life. or maybe a U-turn, meaning i think i need to slow down and enjoy the present as well as maybe going back and really think about the experience i have had in the last year... it's been a whirl wind. In the last few weeks i have come to understand that if i am completely honest and clear things become much easier... which i feel is a change for me. I think i found it funny to lie and talking circles but it just confuses everyone. i'm not sure that make sense but whatever. Another plus to this honest is that people actually get to know how i feel. brilliant! okay well i better get back to work.
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(you really struggle with pluralizing words when necessary)
it is natural to feel that santa cruz is not yet your home. i do not feel that boston is my home, yet i struggle in saying san luis is still my home. It's all such an odd transition and with time comes familiarity and a sense of comfort in many aspects of life.
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